I Didn’t Think Much About PST Before Coming

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Philip Hendrix, 130 TESS

I didn’t think much about PST before coming, and when I did I imagined it would be a brutal experience. Either it would be mindnumbingly tedious or it would be stressful in ways I couldn’t imagine yet. Either way, it was something I had to get over with so I could finally embark on my 2-year adventure of service and self-discovery. Likewise, I didn’t think much about the fellow trainees and Peace Corps staff who I would train with. I had a vague idea that they would become my ‘new best friends’, but I was far more excited to be the only westerner in town than I was to be around a bunch of other Americans in Thailand.

Fast forward 10 weeks, and it has indeed been a brutal experience (at least for me)! It has been hot and humid every day, with one glorious exception, and most of us have ridden our bikes great distances multiple times every day, with some equally glorious exceptions. Our days have been full of sessions and our nights have been full of homework. We have had so much training on so many topics that it’s hard to say what, specifically, we learned in any individual session. We were assessed on teaching, on language, and on things like stress tolerance, emotional maturity, and social sensitivity. For a while I was worried that I might not make the cut. And just when we thought we had a bit of a break, new challenges came out of the woodwork, from organizing an American Day for our host parents to running a training for the teachers in our community.

What I have received in return has been, for the most part, 6 gifts:

  • A measure of resilience: I learned through the training that I can use squat toilets, I can write 14 lesson plans in 7 days for kids I barely know, I can train teachers, I can deal with dogs chasing me, and I can (I think) deal with whatever else my service throws at me over the next 2 years, even (I hope) the moments that will expose my weaknesses and insecurities.
  • A sense of accomplishment and competence: I know that I can greet Thais better than 99% of the foreigners who come to this country; that alone gives me the feeling that I deserve to be here. That, combined with the fact that I have already made Thai students smile (and learn), I have already made Thai teachers laugh (and learn), and have already received feedback from my amazing peers and trainers, makes me feel so much readier to step into a classroom again.
  • A better understanding of who I am: Through the group activities, the projects, and the sheeer amount of time we spent with other incredible adults, I gained a much better understanding of myself as a friend, a teacher, an artist, etc. At times, my closest friends told me that I can sometimes be a great listener and an energetic leader (both of which were surprises to me); other times, the same people were telling me how much of a smart-a** I was.  
  • Countless moments that have touched me deeply: I will never forget the moment when my students taught me the difference between a mini-heart and a baby shark, the moment that I was able to help a fellow volunteer talk through decades-old grievances with their father, or the time that one of our resource volunteers wrote a personalized handwritten note to every single one of us trainees, making me realize the potential of teachers to teach kindness (and changing my perspective on stickers).
  • New friends: I don’t know if it was the intense vulnerability of our group, the fact that many of us are so like-minded, or just the amount of time we spent in an unfamiliar and challenging environment, but it feels like we have become a family. As relieved as I am to be coming out the other side of this training, it broke my heart to leave.
  • Life lessons: I’ll leave you all with two stories from PST that helped to shape the way I live my life.


After about a week of training, the day finally came to begin our language instruction. In a conference room the trainees formed groups of 4, one group at a time, and were randomly assigned our Thai teacher – our aa-jaan – for the next week. Once matched, we filed into another room and began our lessons. Then, at some point, almost out of nowhere, she started talking about karma.

According to our aajan, karma is a force which binds together people within and across lives. She talked about her mentor who recently served as translator for president Obama. Her mentor had grown up in a remote Thai village, and 40 years ago two Peace Corps volunteers had served at her site. When they left, she would send them letters in English, and they would respond with corrections on the letter they received as well as a letter of their own. For our aa-jaan today, serving in the Peace Corps is one way to return the favor on behalf of her mentor, and it is crazy to think that we are ultimately benefitting from the work done by those two volunteers 40 years ago.

Karma also binds our actions in the past to our fortune today. Our aa-jaan is a bit of neat freak, so she got into the habit of cleaning the bathrooms at her local temple every weekend. One day a man stopped by as she was cleaning and asked her what she was doing there. Was she a janitor? Was she unemployed? She responded that she did, in fact, have a job, and over time what began as a funny misunderstanding developed into an intimate relationship. The two are now married.

These stories from our inspirational teacher reminded us all that the good work we do today ripples in our own lives and in the lives of others. It was a good reminder at the right time to put the most into my PST experience. It helped me to pump myself up when things became stressful or monotonous. It also helped me to make sense of the moments outside of my control: the unexpected English teaching (babysitting) sessions with kids in the community, the Thai–nappings, and the group projects where I just had no idea how they would turn out. I took solace in the fact that whatever the situation was, my thoughts and my actions were all I had to worry about. Ultimately, these are just two of the many stories I have from the staff at PST. It’s truly a special crew, and I can’t thank them enough for the effort they put in, and the wisdom they shared, in order to set us up for success.

Those are my thoughts for now! Excited to see what the next chapter holds.

Philip’s second story, “The Doll”, will be published in two weeks on Monday, April 9th.


5 replies »

  1. yes! There are beautiful learning experiences at PST and beyond – love the karma stories too – thanks for contributing your voice


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